Friday, October 30, 2009

But above all, guard your heart

I used to have the guts, the passion, the irrational “do before thinking”, the courage, the leadership, the “I’ll do it straight away” mentality.

I want it back.

Now, I’d rather just hide behind the curtain.

Fel, let all of that go. It’s time to move forward, and rise.

Fearless

fel was shaking her ass at 1:22 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Since we’re on the Grace topic



I just want to share about what went through my mind the past week.
Many of you knew that I worked for my dad last summer. And I wasn’t very proud of it. Not at all.
My parents had to persuade me for days before I gave in reluctantly.

Anw, God gave me the revelation in the past week that I don’t have to feel that I have to believe that I have to use my own efforts pave my own way in life from scratch.
What I mean is: by grace, God gave me a family fortunate enough to be able to help me start up in life. And I don’t have to reject it and have the mentality that I have to earn my title with my own efforts. However, this does mean that I am fully responsible of the gift that God has entrusted in me.

Also, if I were to choose another route, God will definitely still bless me and all but since I know that this is what God might intend for me, why should I fight against a blessing? but to simply accept his grace

fel was shaking her ass at 11:42 PM

Saturday, October 24, 2009

I am home, not on earth


I always ask God to take me heaven. Don’t you think things will be so much easier?

You won’t feel uncomfortable. I won’t feel like I’m from another planet. Your full time occupation is singing/worshipping and memorizing cheem scriptures from the Bible.

I always ask God and sometimes plead for him to take me to be with him.

But daddy God always reminds me that I have a purpose here. And I always tell him that it better be worth it! (NB: the million dollars)

I’m looking forward to playing with Jesus in heaven. Sometimes, as I find myself growing older, I really just want to have some innocent fun. You know, being silly and stupid.

Meanwhile, I have come to terms that I’m at home, not on earth. It’s painful to be here but since God has plans for me, I have decided to be at home with him regardless of location.

When it’s my turn to go to heaven, I’ll be the luckiest girl…dead(:

And if I do, I’ll look down and take care of everyone alive. It’ll be my main priority in heaven. If Jesus wants to “book” me for it, too bad!

And no, this is not a scary post. Cos God has already said that I have to fulfil is promises first.

fel was shaking her ass at 4:32 PM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Now or Never

Haiz… I said I want to do so many things but nothing has been done!

I wanted to learn to play the guitar. But never did it. And I’m blessed enough to have a guitar! At the back of my wardrobe, behind all the T shirts :p

I wanted to run a marathon. (The 5km or 10km ones first, not the normal but mad 42km ones) and I couldn’t be disciplined enough to push past my limit.

I finally bought my camera but hardly took it out. Haven’t even read my manual. Have the potential for greatness but potential will always stay potential if I don’t do something about it.

Photography requires a certain amount of photoshopping skills and I hardly know how to use it.

Thus, my plans for the holidays are:


Morning:

· Lunch

Afternoon

Evening



NO excuses! And since I said it so publicly, I kinda got to do it

Time to pull up my pants [no, not socks, d has given me the permission to use it! ;) ]

For now, discipline in studying. Yes fel. Everyone wants a HD but you are different cos you are gonna be disciplined and hardworking. DO it fel. Yes, I will. Bye!

fel was shaking her ass at 7:31 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

You know what, this has got to end

This term applies to so many things. and you know what, this has got to end.
time for fel to pull up her pants.
and literally too :p

fel was shaking her ass at 11:13 PM


You know, I just typed deleted and typed and deleted.

I don’t really know what to say.

Everything’s good.

Uh, ok not really. {Types delete types deletes…}

I don’t really want to say anything. I rather talk to humans.

But yeah, I’m pretty happy with my life now. Making plans, lotsa plans


fel was shaking her ass at 8:18 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Felisha means happiness.

fel was shaking her ass at 12:40 AM

Monday, October 05, 2009

Who is this God?


Who is this King? Whose kingdom holds no end
I can believe that he create the earth, the skies, the sun and the universe.
So, I can believe that he will hold me together.

fel was shaking her ass at 5:03 PM

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Part 2: What on earth is Goodness???

I was celebrating my ex housemate's birthday today! And by the end of the night, I had this random realisation that she had a very strong goodness quality.

But it kinda didn't make sense cos what on earth is goodness???! I covered Part 1: Gentleness earlier earlier but never continued to do goodness. And here I am, using it on someone when I didn't even understand what it means.


 

Jumped out of bed and started googling.

And because I jumped out of bed, I am lazy, so I did not type anything here:


 

Galatians 5:22-23

Goodness the engagement of love! It displays integrity, honesty and compassion to others and allows us to do the right thing. Goodness takes our virtue and excellence and models it to others in the action of love. It is doing the right thing even when it does not feel like we should, as Joseph was betrayed and sold as a slave, he chose to make his situation good and help and treat others better than he needed too. Goodness is the model for people to repent and accept Christ.

Badness, cruelty, ruthlessness, depravity,
debauchery and evil are the opposites. It is being mercilessness and unscrupulousness in our dealings toward others!
When we fight against each other especially in the church, you have to see it as how hurtful and even pathetic it is in God's eyes!


 

Ref: http://www.discipleshiptools.org/apps/articles/default.asp?articleid=36690&columnid=4166


 

If you are lazy but want to know how you can show goodness, goodness is basically loving your enemy as yourself.

If you are not lazy and want to read more, you can either read the bible verses which are shown in the linked webpage.

If you clicked on the link and realised that there's a million verses, you can click here to just read Proverbs 25: 8-28


 

I so should do more reading and explaining of this topic. But I am lazy, so I am going to bed.

fel was shaking her ass at 1:43 AM