Dear god,

I come humbly before you. I have so many areas of my life I don't understand. I would like you to help me understand, push me to obey you, force me to choose your way. And I'm honestly scared at the force me part okay.

I know I'm imperfect. I feel so worthless. I know that with you, I am not all that. But help me understand, because I don't want to keep hating myself if I am imperfect. I don't want to be so disgusted at myself for sinning, so angry because I failed to be perfect in my grades. I want to enjoy Christianity.

But above all, I must be reminded that all is for you.

Again and again, it does take a while to fully grasps this.